June 2012
someone: whats wrong?
thinking: everything's wrong. i don't feel special or important. i try to be someone who people will like but no-one sees it still. people prefer my friends to me, even the guys. i don't feel pretty or thin or rich, i feel poor, ugly and fat. i try so hard to fit in but no-one accepts me. i feel like people talk about me all the time, even my 'best' friends. i can't think straight, i can't concentrate. and when i'm alone or quiet, thoughts come into my head like 'why am i alive' 'why am i so fat and ugly' 'i feel like killing myself' and they won't go and they won't go but i can't cry in front of anyone cos its so hard to explain. even when i'm happy, it's so real, and i love it, but i go sad so very quick, and people call me annoying for laughing for once. and i just don't know what to do, i'm so confused about everything. i feel like killing myself, i've felt like killing myself for so so long but i'm so scared of death. i'm scared of living and everything whilst i'm living, but i'm scared of dying and being gone forever. every second is a nightmare and i don't know if i can ever be happy whilst i'm thinking of such depressing stuff. i need help. help me.
what i say: nothing's wrong, i'm fine
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Bipolar is not mood swings
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Drug addiction is not trying it a couple of times
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